Pefection in Weakness

I know this was just the topic of a teen retreat, but the idea still lingers in my head. I want to find a way to be confident, but my spirit constantly lingers on my weaknesses. When Paul wanted to eliminate his weakness, God replied to him this way:

"But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me. That is why, for Christ's sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong." -2 Corinthians 12:9-10

I want to rest in my weakness as I long for his strength to shine through it, but it seems like people around me have started to get a little tired of weakness in me. In all reality, I have started to get a little tired of it myself. I want to wake up and attack my days full of blessings that I don't deserve, and experience pure joy in moments of divine peace. But so often my powerful emotions are all tempered by the reality of sin, and the struggle against selfishness in me. And so, humility is present, but Paul seems to go further, when he says "made perfect in" and "delight in" weakness.

My prayer is that there are moments when I can, for Christ's sake, straight up delight in my weaknesses, instead of bowing my head with humility and considering my weaknesses. He can be better served some days by a confident servant, fresh from his Word, speaking or singing with his strength, communicating his power to overcome all trouble.

I am excited.


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